I hate poker. Fugly girls hate me.

So I think its time to semi-retire from poker. I just can't be bothered anymore. Last night I had nothing better to do, so heated up about 6 or 7 MTTs, and once again I was pretty bored playing them. I did ok in a couple, lost some key coin-flips that would have given me a decent cash, but that's not what bothered me. What bothered me was how completely uninterested I was.

A few months ago, all I could think of was poker. It's actually quite scary to think back, but when I begna playing online poker frequently (maybe 18 months ago), I just couldn't stop thinking about it. I'd go to work, and read a poker book on the train. I'd get to work, and think about playing poker all day long, how I'd 3-bet someone on a flop of 6-6-A, no matter what I held. How I'd raise early position with junk, steal the blinds, fold to rocks, and try and get paid by fish. I'd get home, and play 5 hours of poker, have a shower, shave, sleep 6 hours and back to work. And the results encouraged me, with me winning a $5 300man MTT only weeks into the experience. I'd play 0.5/1 cash, and spin up a hundred or two, then lose it, but hey man, that's the game etc.

I fucking loved it. Then I started thinking that maybe if I studied the game, put the hours in, and committed to it, maybe, just maybe I could one day get a big win and even turn pro! So I did this, and a few weeks later I final tabled a $5 MTT with 3,700 entrants, busting in 6th with KK v AA. Ah, ul, but still gg, I could really be going somewhere with this.

But where did this obsession end? Was it with the destruction of my bankroll? The fact that I never got near such an achievement again? I've won plenty of smaller MTTs since, but this had thousands, THOUSANDS of people, and I was better than all but 5 of them.

Well, see thats the problem I think. The luck aspect. When I play, I get beat by donks, fish, tards and bots all the time I reckon. They aren't better than me, but that's poker. In addition, I've given players much better than me some serious beats before, again, it's poker. The true test of whether you are any good is over an extended period, thousands of hands, hundreds of tournaments. And I just can't be bothered anymore.

So as I bust from my final MTT on a cold deck, with my straight getting beaten by a better one on a patchy board, I decided that I'm only going to play poker now with mates, or at a live tournament, and no longer so frequently online. Maybe my opinion will change, and I'm sure it will, but right now I can't be bothered committing large amounts of my time to something that I no longer enjoy, care about, or am very good at. It's not like I'm winning hundreds a month, so why am I even bothering.

In other news...went to sandown racecourse friday, day out with work, and it was nice. The sun was out, the beer was flowing, the racing was average etc. I only bet on 3 of the 6 races, and won the first one. Never really liked flat racing that much, so didn't really get into it.

Ginger girl has blocked me on msn I think, I think because of some comment I made about michael jackson. She 'loves him', as does everyone since he died, and I basically told her that I enjoy his music, but at the end of the day if he wasn't famous, nobody would ever make excuses as to why he loved to sleep with children (allegedly), he'd be called a paedo and locked up straight away. Anyway, that was it, she logged off and bye bye. She'd already told me that she didn't see me 'as a potential boyfriend' anyway. Jesus, boyfriend...all I wanted was a quick one tbh, she seemed a bit lonely so I was hoping to pounce. I really got to up my standards though, I think I've been going for girls that are too ugly lately. I honestly think that they can be harder to pull. Check this:

a) They always want a boyfriend. Never a quick fling, or lets see how things go. No, it has to be some steady long term bullshit that is one step short of a contractual agreement.

b) They always seem to have some romanticised idea of their ideal man. 'I'm not going to waste time with someone I don't think is the one'. Ok. Enjoy your copy of 4 weddings and a funeral, and your ensuring alone time with your finger.

c) They always like shit music. Hey, I don't make the rules ok, this is how it is. Find me an ugly girl that doesn't like Take That and listen religiously to capital fm or heart, and I'll find you a middle class woman that hates tennis

d) However slow you go, its not slow enough. A touch of the hand on first date? You'll get looked at like you're a rapist.

e) If you do get with them, they often get paranoid or obsessed on a scale you could never have imagined beforehand. 'Where were you saturday night? I called you three times and no answer?'. 'You took 20 mins to reply to my text, what are you doing?' 'What would you call our first kid?'

FUCK.

Don't get confused between ugly timid girls, and ugly slappers, two completely different breeds. I may one day speak of ugly slappers, but today I was referring to the timid ones.

Maybe its me. Maybe I'm an ugly bastard with a shit personality, and few redeemable features?



Ahaha, got you. Who said I didn't have a GSOH eh? ;-)

Until next time, take care xox