A portrait of the artist as a gambler

I've always had the urge to just put everything down and run to a far-away place, attempting to become some kind of a Kurtz-like figure imposing my influence on some culture that simply isn't ready for me.

I'd probably choose Brazil as my destination, and would head for the hills, attempting to bribe and infiltrate my way into a select community, before building up my influence and attempting to conquer the favelas, and then the rest of the country.

This urge has amplified in recent weeks. Maybe it's the fact that all I seem to do is work, and yet can't afford anything of note, the fact that I am braindead all day long, and then go home and watch tv or youtube to complete a day of brainfrying. Maybe it's the fact that all I can see when I wake up is suffering. In the mirror, on the street, opposite me on the train. That Monday morning look, is this all really worth it?

I look at others going to work every morning, and it kills me. That look of hopelessness, of being beaten to nothing by the system. I often feel this intense sympathy, and feel it strongly, until some fat unhygenic person stands next to me and starts sneezing in my direction. Then I go back to thinking about Brazil.

And so what have I been doing the past 6 months? Avoiding poker for one. And avoiding anything productive too. I've been seeing a girl for a while, and end up doing nothing with her, which gets me thinking, when has a man ever achieved anything with a woman by his side? It's pretty rare.

There are many distractions in this world, to stop us ever achieving anything. For most of us, it is work which is our major distraction. Travelling to and from work, being at work, getting ready for work, we're talking 11 or 12 hours a day. And then the rest of our time is taken up by women, television, gambling and drugs/alcohol.

I guess it's a real life sedative, putting us all into a coma.


Poker:

None.

Writing:

Some.

Sports Betting:

Yeah.

Been back on the sports betting, and guess what you lucky boys and girls, I'll start sharing my tips with you all in this blog. I'm +130% this month, so let's keep this shiet up.

Right now, I got a few active bets, I got Cher and Wagner to win X-factor (15 and 200), and will lay off Wagner this week at 50, and waiting on Cher, and for Porto at 17.5 for the Europa.

Mid-week internationals = yawn. Excuse me whilst I got find an MLS or Indonesian league match to bet on.